Neon Purple Glow / rehearsal at Agatha’s Studio, Buffalo, NY, 2023
I feel a neon purple glow when it’s safe and I know that my mother is near and I do not need to fear
Movement / Rest
I feel aw when I’m insignificant sustaining awe is exhausting I would rather get lost in the work of surviving
Movement / Rest
When I was little everything was magic I’d like to get that perspective back to make yourself feel nothing what a waste
Movement / Rest
Everybody wants to be a sub / rehearsal, Buffalo, NY, 2023
Everybody wants to be a sub, take my body show me I am loved
I feel most powerful riding a horse fast in the forest, I don't want to be in control I want to know you're in control so I can surrender
Because everybody wants to be a sub
Remember when we were orphans lost in the woods / Remember when you were the sick patient and I took care of you / Remember when you were the baby whale and I was the whale mother / Remember when I didn't know if I'd ever recover / Remember when you told me Santa wasn't real / Remember when I didn't know how I wanted to feel
Because everybody wants to be a sub, take my body show me I am loved
Maybe we could work together maybe we could take turns If everybody didn't want to be a sub
AEIOU / rehearsal, Buffalo, NY, 2023
Everything has already happened, 2022
According to Einstein we are both already dead and also not yet born, just floating along on the endless spiral of non-linear time.
And I find it comforting to know that we are infinite and we may grow but we are also constantly falling apart.
Everything has already happened, everything to be has already been.
Why can’t we be satisfied
I am so unsatisfied
Why can’t we be satisfied
Death-bo-beath
Death is just part of it all
Death death bo beath banana fana fo feath me my mo meath dea-eth